Tuesday, 22 November 2016

I'm hibernating ...

You may have seen on my twitter that I am having a little break from my blogs and this post will be the last of 2016. I need to sort my head out and get my life organised in order to remember why I started blogging and why I love it so much. I will still be around on social media and cant wait to come back in the new year!

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Friday, 18 November 2016

Feeling Proud of Little Things

Today I am going back to work.

It has been a long nearly 7 weeks off and I am so glad to be getting back. However, I have a really bad fibro flare ... good sign right?

I came onto blogger this morning not intending to write a post but looking at my stats I realised someone was reading my "Why I've Left Slimming World" post from May this year and I thought oh I better delete that. Then I decided not to.

I have felt lately that my mental health has been terrible, my anxiety especially has been rearing its ugly head, but reading that post actually showed me I have come a long way. I dont hate my body. It started with listening To Jes Baker's things no one tells fat girls and I made the promise to start loving my body and dressing for me and not worrying about my belly. The problem is for me, after about a month or so loving myself actually turned into mistreating myself. I wasnt doing it intentially but I started eating and drinking far too much sugary, fatty foods. The turning point came a few weeks ago when I realised that this was no longer about how I looked, but how I felt. Surely there must be a link between how many down days I am having and how much crap I am putting into my body.

Thats when I decided to rejoin Slimming World. My reasoning was that I thrive on structure. It sounds a little bit strange writing it down, but it seemed the perfect way to teach myself that everything is ok in moderation and also giving me the structure to eat meals and really get into the kitchen and start cooking again. A month ago I was living off frozen food that was quick and easy, which is silly because I have had all the time in the world to be cooking! I just didnt have the motivation to cook. If you want to see what I am cooking I have a dedicated slimming world instagram: Charlottelucy_sw

Its been just under two weeks now since I started and already I feel a lot better. I have had one IBS flare and one fibro flare, which when I was having them everyday this is a massive achievement! I kind of feel now that area of my life is under control I can start on other things ... money management and decluttering spring to mind but thats a blog post for another day.

I am at peace with my body for now and that couldnt make me more proud.

Proud as punch.

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Monday, 14 November 2016

Slimming World Diaries: To cheat or not to cheat? That is the question ...

I realised today that my head is in the right place for once with slimming world. I weighed in for the first time and lost 4.5lbs. I was so so happy I wouldnt to shout from the rooftops, but unfortunately it was a bad week for my group. I dont know if other Slimming worlders find this, but I find that some weeks seem to bring the mood down for everyone. Lots of people struggle at the same time.

Anyway, when I lost weight before I 100% endorsed treat or cheat days. After my weigh in I would take the rest of the day off and treat myself to what I had been craving. Most weeks it would be something little but other weeks I would go crazy. Let me say, this never affected my losses but its a very individual thing. Slimming World does not endorse it (they have other methods such as flexi syn days etc) but after getting near to my target and ricocheting a stone and a half heavier than my original start weight I dont want this time to mirror anything about then.

Remember, this is not a diet, its a lifestyle.

So today I left group and headed into town ready to have some off plan food. But what did I really want? I thought and thought and then came to the conclusion that actually I would syn whatever I was going to have. I wouldnt put a limit on it, I would just make myself aware of exactly how many syns I was eating.

I didn't want anything fried, that was a given. I have felt a lot better with my IBS this last week (apart from one day) and I have put this down to either eating less fried food, eating less fat or eating less sugar. On the latter point, I didnt want to binge on chocolate. I have the syns to have chocolate everyday if I want but actually I haven't really been reaching for it like I used to.

In the end I decided I wanted a sandwich. One thing led to another and instead of finding myself sat in a cafe eating a sandwich made for me (and possibly fat and calorie laden) I was on the bus home armed with smoked salmon, quark and some sugar free pink cranberry lemonade. I cant describe how I feel at the moment. For the first time in a long while I don't feel like I am depriving. I am broadening my horizons in one way and I am experiencing hunger which feels good. I used to constantly graze because I was bored and food was something I just had out of habit. Whereas one week in I am inspired to cook and have been eating much bigger portions.

My lunch today was beautiful. On plan and really satisfied me! More than that though, it showed me that cheating the plan is only cheating myself. Eating in secret is a habit I need to break. Don't get me wrong if I have been invited to eat out etc I will be enjoying myself. Eating should be a social thing. When I was binging I would do it alone.

My mental health has been up and down this past week. After having my implant out I went on this crazy hormone induced roller coaster which left me crying in nandos (yes, that really happened) and now things seem to have calmed down in that department I am looking forward to getting back into my routine. I am back at work this week after a loong 7 weeks off!

Happy Go Lucky.

Do you know I have a fashion and beauty blog? Read it here 

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Friday, 11 November 2016

11.11.2016 Today I Cried. A Lot.

I am someone who cries. Whether it is a sad film, a story in the paper about some long lost couple finding each other, a particularly sweet child ... you name it I will get a tear in my eye. Today though it has been in epic proportions.

Last week I had my contraceptive implant taken out as I was convinced it was a major contributing factor to my decline in mental health. On Monday I started Slimming World and on Tuesday got my first period in over a year - which is all fantastic timing obviously. Between wanting to face plant the nearest bar of chocolate and stuff my face with a dominos pizza (both I have resisted by the way - just polishing my halo over here) I have cried. When I say I have cried I mean I have sobbed like a baby.

Thursday, 10 November 2016