However, my body is once again giving up on me.
Fibromyalgia is cruel. Sometimes I feel like it isnt here. I am just tired, but every body gets tired don't they? This time it started with a bad back, that despite pain killers and plenty of hot baths it was constantly there. Then I got a sickness bug and it knocked me for six.
I am trying to declutter my house, but finding that I can only do small amounts per day due to fatigue. Today I had planned to clean the bathroom but after going into town to run a few errands, all i have been able to do is sort the rubbish and then sit with the fan on on my bed. My mind however wants to go out for a run and wear a floaty dress and walk through a field barefoot ... yeah just me?
I was talking to my friend Tania about how spoonies are the strongest people I have ever met. You know? Invisible illness is one of those things that so many people discount. So many people tell you to snap out of it, tell you theyve been in pain too but it will pass. Dont get me wrong, I have good days and bad days but chronic means it. I have been in pain constantly for about 5 years now and I still dont think the doctors know what to do with me.
To everyone else who feels let down by their body, keep doing you, you are doing great!