This is the kind of post I dont want to write. The kind where I feel like I am lost. I feel like my mental health issues are taking over and the more I try to portray that I am happy on the outdside the more I want to run away and hide.
What you have to know about depression is that its not always constant. My anxiety seems to be everyday relentless heart racing and worrying. My depression comes in waves. Yesterday morning I cried pretty much constantly from the minute I woke up until about 3pm. I was glued to my bed for the first part and slowly and surely I had to make myself get up.
I had to not make myself feel guilty about all the housework that needed doing and just do what I can.
I had a bath and some food, a cup of tea and a little sleep and gradually I started to feel a little more human.
I am writing this becuase i believe it is important, to share the good times and the bad. Bloggers are getting a reputation for showing only the good parts of their days and while there are some things I would rather keep private I believe my depression is nothing to be ashamed of and even just writing down I have been feeling helps me to keep track and see if these days are becoming more frequent.
If you are struggling please feel free to talk to me, a doctor, the samaritans ... whoever you feel ok with, but remember you are never alone.
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