I feel like I have been hiding something the last couple of weeks. Its been festering inside of me and I have been hoping it will go away, and it hasn't and I need to write it down before It takes over my entire life.
My travel anxiety seems to have become a million times worse.
I have mentioned on the blog before that a lot of it is linked to my IBS. Once I am on a bus I worry about needing the toilet urgently. However it is all a bit of a vicous cycle. The more I worry about needing the toilet, the more anxious I get, the more anxious I get the more likely I am to need the toilet (fight or flight response and all that). So the conclusion is I have been avoiding routes I don't know. I haven't been to a couple of towns I love to go charity shopping in for ages because I am scared of the bus route and scared that I don't know where toilets are when I get there.
I didn't go to a couple of events I was invited to recently because the worry of this had me throwing up all night the night before.
Its got to the point when even my 15 minute bus journey to work has left me having almighty panic attacks while I am waiting for the bus (not that youd know it from looking at me, I just feel my heart racing and feel like theres a bead of sweat from every alst inch of my body)
I have to tackle this because at the moment it is making my miserable. I feel like I go to work, sleep and go out in the car with Tom ... although even that has been causing me issues lately!
If anyone has any advice it would be greatly appreciated.
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