I feel like it is time for a new chapter in Discovering Charlotte.
Where I stand at the moment is that I am a 26 year old married woman who feels as if she has no idea what she is doing with her life. Being off sick this past few weeks has plunged my anxiety and depression right down into my boots. I change my mind about what I want to do so many times each day. I miss my friends, I love them and want to see them but at the same time home feels safe. Yesterday was a good day, I went into town and got books from the library and today I am exhausted. I have been up since 7am reading. Went for a blood test and then crawled back into bed to do some more reading.
One thing that has struck me recently is that I want to do good in this world. When I was in town yesterday I bought a homeless man a mcdonalds. It seems so insignificant in the grand scheme of things, but when I saw him on my way to get a costa this sense floored me. I am not sure what it was but I couldnt shake the feeling that I needed to help him. Instead of buying an over priced coffee which I clearly could do without I could help this human being by getting them some warm food.
This blog started as a way for me to write down my feelings and has ended up making me more and more anxious. Trying to put my fingers in too many pies and trying to hide what I am feeling in order to work with brands. Thats not what discovering charlotte is about. Its about me and my journey to overcoming my health issues and making the most out of my life. Currently the nausea and IBS I am struggling with is haunting me every day and all I want to do is hide, even though I know I feel better once I am out and about.
From now on, I am going to come here to write and I will write about what I am feeling as I am feeling it. Im going to be fighting my anxiety, depression and IBS every single day. I cant wait to be back at work to get a little more structure in my life.
If you are more interested in a blog about budget fashion and lifestyle the ShoestringChic is where you need to be heading, where I aim to have a post up every Monday and Friday.