Trigger warning: If you don't like talk of weight, numbers and calories probably best avoid this one.
you and I have been through so much haven't we?
I have hated you. You have let me down. With my IBS you have embarrased me and left me bloated and shamed. In pain and sincerly down in the dumps. When I first joined Slimming World back in 2014 it was because I hated you. I hated you with a passion and I wanted to get rid of you as quickly as possible. My target weight of 9 Stone 7lbs was exactly what I was when I started university. However we both know that wasnt a healthy weight. The product of a nasty break up and a diet of pineapple, smoked salmon and not much else, we knew it couldnt last.
My lowest weight on Slimming World was 10 Stone 6lbs. I remember nana telling me I was too thin. I shrugged it off, I knew better. I needed that flat stomach, it was so important to me. Now I look back at those pictures and feel like I dont look like me. Im not meant to be super thin, its just not me.
My promise to you now is this. We are going into this together, its a labour of love. I want you to be smaller dont get me wrong, but I still want your soft curves ... I would be lost without my belly. I am doing this because I love you. I want to treat you well. I want to fill you full of foods to have you working your best. I know your a little sensitive to some of the foods everyone harps on that are good for you, but we will work on that ok?
Im not going to turn up to Slimming World in my baggy clothes and sink into the background, no. We will go in our favourite dresses and make friends and be proud of each week. A loss, a gain, a maintain there will be no tears this time. No goals of time, we will do this as fast or slow as you need to do it, and I am not setting a target yet, we will just see how we feel.
I love you and I dont want that to change.